So I have these days that just ultimately suck big time. Like today where my sinuses are pounding in my skull, I can barely move because it hurts so bad and the part that is even worse than that, days like this, every little thing reminds me of Nate. And I miss him so much. It's so hard still to not have him with me. And I get tears in my eyes and am about to cry, but crying, or almost crying makes my head pulsate.

Nate was my best friend other than Stevo. I miss that he was the only one that knew how I was feeling when I felt like this. I miss his help in the kitchen. I miss going over to his house and hanging out watching movies. I miss playing board games with him. I miss laughing with him. I love him, he was and still is a part of me. I'll always remember him. I also know I'll see him again again! xo Nate love you.

Yesterday morning I realized we had about a cup of milk left so I knew after work I had to go to Costco, and I also needed stamps. So after working 11.30 hours, I went to Costco. The curse of Costco got to me. After spending $100, I left with milk and stamps, but also sweet baby ray's bbq sauce, 2 shirts, and lotion. Geez the curse of Costco.

Then I got home and told Stevo I just spent a ton of money at Costco he asked me if I wanted to go spend more. And so we went to Bestbuy and bought a camcorder! Very exciting! It's a dark blue color and super cool and super tiny! We bought it mostly for when we go to London, but it will be very useful for other things as well!

When we got home, I checked the mail and I finally got my jacket (that Stevo wasn't supposed to know about but since he was watching me get the mail he found out about) that is "leather" but it's not real leather, pleather! woo I tried it on and it's totally awesome! Stevo told me I looked like a biker chick! haha





I've been trying this thing people call "working out" I've been pretty good at staying with it. And I'm also getting to the point where it feels good when I work out, which is good so it doesn't just feel like I'm dying! haha

I can run once around the apartment block (which is not even a 1/8 of a mile) without wanting to just fall down and die! haha

I had Stevo watch me do push ups to make sure I was doing them right. I can only do 2... but I am doing them right! Now I just have to at least do one real pull up!